
Blitzkreig wrote:
Nesje1 wrote:
Blitzkreig wrote:
my boyfriend of two years just left me two weeks agoi am the lonliest ive been in my entire life. i dont think i will ever be able to trust another man ever again. we went through so much together and i honestly thought he wasnt going anywhere. now im left alone...and i feel like life isnt even worth living anymore, all i want is someone to love me and hug me...but even then i know it wont be the same as when i was with him. im just so sad all the time and i hate myself because i feel like if i hadve just done this or if i didnt do that then he would still be there. when i was with him there were times when i did want to be single...i am young and need some time to myself on occasion, but i love feeling like im being smothers, i love knowing someone loves me that much that they wants to spend every second with me. i just want him back so badly and i dont know what im suposed to do now that im alone. i just sit on the couch and sleep most of the days...and its so hard going to school seeing him and going out seeing him with other girls. and i have some amazing friends... but he was my best friend... so its worse, i feel as though ive lost everything.
Trust me Blitzkreig, it get's easier!
I know you don't feel like that now but it will!! Just hang in there. And it's ok to feel sad and cry. You'll only be stronger when the feeling passes over!somehow i know that and i know its gets better, everyone tells me its just so hard to believe it at the moment...i feel like i want to sleep untill this feeling is gone but its hard because i have school so i cant sleep, ive been skipping school just because i dont want to see him. i cant wait until the day comes where i can smile about being single.
I know out of experience it's one of the worst feelings EVER!!!!
When I was like this I did a lot of walking on my own and putting my feelings on paper in like a diary! Maybe something you could try??
Again, just hang in there.
What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger!!!
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independent! nobody believes me, of course, but what matters is what i think, yeah?
i'm not really lonely. i have friends, still have been with people, i just don't want an actual relationship for now...('for now' has lasted about 4 years now!)
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