My "father" (if you want to call him that) was the same way before he died. He was drunk more often when he was sober, and he was an angry drunk. Hence why none of his children cried when he "passed away."

My mom was physically and verbally abusive even when she was sober, so you can imagine how bad it gets once she's got the drink in her.
God I've got so many issues.

Edit -

Sorry Sleapy. I didn't see your post until now. Physically, I haven't seen my mom since 2007. But mentally and emotionally, I don't think my mom was ever there. Apparently she's got a job at the Target whereever she's living, but I don't know if it's because she had to or to support whatever habit she has now. I know she lost her nursing license because she was found to have stolen like, 87-90 things of an important drug from the nursing home she was working at.(I think it was methadone, but I'm not sure.) So yeah, I don't trust her.
I have so many issues with alcohol alone, not to mention the sexual, physical, emotional, verbal and mental abuse I had to endure for my whole life(up to 2009 of course. I met James in March of that year and everything changed, thank fucking God. I was close to offing myself that year, actually.)

Last edited by KittySaysMeow34 (02-04-2012 04:28)

Is it mean to say I don't want a relationship with my mom unless she takes the first step?

I think if you want to have a relationship with your mom be willing to expect anything, but that doesn't mean that you have to be accepting of the things she does. It doesn't mean you have to wait for her to make the first step. But if you don't feel like you're ready to start a relationship with her especially if she's doing things that make you uncomfortable then I'd wait for her. But all of that is your decision.

Methadone is usually a very controlled substance wherever it is used... mostly in clinics though. It's very risky to steal it because of that. I made a speech once about methadone used as a heroin treatment and did my research up on it after my cousin (who had schizophrenia was heavily into drugs) overdosed.

Last edited by sleapyhead (02-04-2012 04:46)

Any time. I love to help friends, and besides the fact that I'm a massive bitch, I tend to rationalize and empathize pretty well. It's true that it's very hard to find people out there in teh worlds who aren't actually stuck up their own asses.

There's just some stuff that needs sharing, you know?

Night night.
I'm going to stay up a bit and watch a movie, so I'll be around a while.

Night night you guys. Thanks for the help.

We've snowed a bit here. Not sure what's going on outside now, got the curtains shut

As for alcohol, my father used to come home drunk from football when I was a child. Not often, but I saw it a few times and felt kinda scared at it - not that he was violent, he just smelt funny and was louder. I've definitely got his attitude to alcohol though, my mum doesn't drink but obviously my dad does. I enjoy a drink, and have only got sick once before from over doing it - never, ever again!
I don't really know whether I'm a lightweight or not though, one drink gives me that floaty, happy, talk to everyone feeling, then a couple more to get me to dance in front of other people. A couple more and I feel a bit shitty.
I've definitely learnt not to mix drinks, but I'm not sure what is a massive no-no to mix with what etc. Feel free to educated me

Edit: I just realised I wrote 'educated' instead of 'educate', now it looks like I'm a right alcoholic. I promise I'm sober and everything right now.

Last edited by LolaLoveheart (02-04-2012 21:14)

It's cool for like the first 10 minutes, and then you realise how annoying it is. I went outside about 30 minutes ago and then realised the grit I had put down a few hours before had stopped being effective, so had to re-grit all the pavements. I totally look forward to doing it again tonight or tomorrow morning when it's even worse.

It's been snowing since 4pm (now it's 9) and we're already through a whole kilogram (I think) bag of grit. We've only got one more bag left. I knew we should've bought more

At work bored out of my mind.... This lady came in to make a deposit(keep in mind it must be a minimal of $20) with only $10 . No, I can't make exceptions for you... don't you see cameras are watching us everywhere? These people are trying get me fired.

Ohhh, I wanted to bitch slap the lady for demanding me to take her money... Bitch.. it's clearly not enough! & you don't need to be math wiz to figure out you're lacking another ten bucks... just get out the bank & make your pity deposit when you have the minimal 20 dollars... urg! stupid indeed.


How ya doing Kitty? What badness have you been up to?

Ohh, I'm going to Victoria's Secret... I want to buy some sexy panties & lingerie..

Side note, I'm still thinking of getting my vagazzle for valentines day for my GF.

I talked with the lady who does my wax, she said it would cost me $115+ tax with a total of $125.